My life is seeking companionship to no avail,
My life is having the ship and not setting sail.
My life is all sorts of strange,
Yet not enough change.
And here I still lie in bed still estranged.
Days pass by, and weeks turn to months,
And vanity strikes where it does not belong.
Yet I still play my songs
But I am no longer fond
Of my surroundings
So transparent, however still
I cannot find the right things to fill
The gaps in my mind, my life, and my soul
Why is it that I do not feel whole?
This force in my body,
Gravity, maybe so.
It’s pulling me downward
And into my core.
I slice at my limbs, my torso, my crown,
Attempting to pull out all that’s amiss
But I miss
And I kiss
Goodbye and good riddance
To the sanity that with me,
Once did dance.
It’s superior without me,
Hence, I wish it Godspeed.
I fathom I’ll find alternative things to feed
My will to complete my daily endeavors.
I need not ask for any favors.
I’ll find it within me to love and to savor
The companionship I search for
And forbear to waiver.