I soak my blood in alcohol thinking I'd forget about you
But you were there with me on my couch 1a.m in the morning from my first shot of ***** to drinking 6 beers and still you're here
swinging my bottle of beer as I walked to the balcony
"**** love, **** everything" I slammed down on the ground, looking at the city lights and how beautiful everything looks from a distance
"Us, me and you I want that" you used to say I let myself shed a few tears
Then you jumped off ledge and cut my heart to little pieces, "you *******!" I used to screamed out from the balcony
The neighbors are used to this
"You left me all alone" I whispered as if you were sitting next to me


Imagining your reply, "no I won't be okay" I leaned my head against the railings downing the bottle of beer in a few seconds
"Everything is dark, everyone has been trying to cheer me up but they don't understand us they don't know what our love was"I said imagining you sitting next to me

I stood up and walked to the fridge "this place feels empty without you, I'm empty without you, my friends have given up, they think I'm beyond repair"I laughed a empty callous laugh