of all creation who breathes it is you robbing me of my lungs' ability, the electricity of your presence shocks me into memories. they pull on my coat because it is cold in my own heart unlike your fingertips melting the ice of my first impressions. part of me resides in your throat and I wait on you to swallow me yet. I am nothing if not a reflection in your irises. violence of dawn is enough to redirect me to your voice for discouragement. I was never taught that this fear could keep me safe from fears. you hold your own tongue and you land on both your feet and I am still stumbling to regain balance. a beggar might ask me for some change and I will rid myself of you this time. yesterday you said goodnight and it is dark as night until you say goodmorning and I seem to wait for the sun to rise with your chest. this was not supposed to happen you were supposed to flood the garden now the flowers are blooming.