Jan 2014
Ignore them. Intruding thoughts come to you in the night, do not act on them. Push them away. Pretend you haven't thought them. Because they are just thoughts, they cannot ruin you. As long as you don't let them. Change your way of thinking and you can change your life. Don't let negative thoughts control you, learn to control them.
2. Eat. Eat regularly and eat well. When you've eaten too much do not force your fingers down your throat. Do not deprive yourself of the most basic survival need. Food is not going to **** you, but your eating disorder will. You are worthy. You are beautiful.
3. Learn to love yourself. Its all you can do in this world full of pain. You have this body for your whole life, you cannot be violating it with so much hate. I know how hard it is, but if you want to get by, this is the most important thing. You need to love yourself. Because you're worth it.
4. Enjoy the little things. Look at the flowers, drink coffee. Meditate. Breathe. Focus on your breathing, watch the stars. Remember where you came from.
5. Forgive. Forgive yourself and forgive others. Never hold a grudge because holding a grudge is like feeding yourself poison. Let go of the past, it's called the past for a reason.
6. Do not do drugs. They will ruin you. No matter what you feel, they will not solve it. They cannot save you. They will tear you apart from the inside out.
7. Find a hobby. Anything you enjoy doing. You deserve to have a safe release and escape from the world.
8. Let people in. You are not supposed to feel all this pain by yourself. You need to find somebody you can actually talk to, whether its a therapist or your mother. If you do not let people in you can never get better. You need help from outside sources, whether you want it or not.
9. Be good to your family. You never know when the last time you might be seeing them will be. They love you, treat them like you love them.
10. Play with animals. Animals can be so therapeutic. Get a cat.
11. Don't worry what others think about you. You cannot change their opinion. It doesn't matter what they think about you. All that matters is what you think of yourself.
2. Eat. Eat regularly and eat well. When you've eaten too much do not force your fingers down your throat. Do not deprive yourself of the most basic survival need. Food is not going to **** you, but your eating disorder will. You are worthy. You are beautiful.
3. Learn to love yourself. Its all you can do in this world full of pain. You have this body for your whole life, you cannot be violating it with so much hate. I know how hard it is, but if you want to get by, this is the most important thing. You need to love yourself. Because you're worth it.
4. Enjoy the little things. Look at the flowers, drink coffee. Meditate. Breathe. Focus on your breathing, watch the stars. Remember where you came from.
5. Forgive. Forgive yourself and forgive others. Never hold a grudge because holding a grudge is like feeding yourself poison. Let go of the past, it's called the past for a reason.
6. Do not do drugs. They will ruin you. No matter what you feel, they will not solve it. They cannot save you. They will tear you apart from the inside out.
7. Find a hobby. Anything you enjoy doing. You deserve to have a safe release and escape from the world.
8. Let people in. You are not supposed to feel all this pain by yourself. You need to find somebody you can actually talk to, whether its a therapist or your mother. If you do not let people in you can never get better. You need help from outside sources, whether you want it or not.
9. Be good to your family. You never know when the last time you might be seeing them will be. They love you, treat them like you love them.
10. Play with animals. Animals can be so therapeutic. Get a cat.
11. Don't worry what others think about you. You cannot change their opinion. It doesn't matter what they think about you. All that matters is what you think of yourself.
I was 13 years old when I first noticed signs of depression.
later, I was diagnosed with clinical depression and anxiety, and more recently, borderline personality disorder.
I've been through a lot, and I haven't always handled it well
this past august I swallowed a bottle of pills
it ended me up in a psychiatric hospital
while there, I learned so much about myself and about life
I learned how to cope with anger
sadness
abuse
what I learned there is what I'm going to share with you
this is called: How to Survive Your demons.
This is how to save yourself.
later, I was diagnosed with clinical depression and anxiety, and more recently, borderline personality disorder.
I've been through a lot, and I haven't always handled it well
this past august I swallowed a bottle of pills
it ended me up in a psychiatric hospital
while there, I learned so much about myself and about life
I learned how to cope with anger
sadness
abuse
what I learned there is what I'm going to share with you
this is called: How to Survive Your demons.
This is how to save yourself.
Written by
Jade M Matelski
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