Leave.
If you must.
I won't stop you.
I'll never beg for love.
I'll never disclose what makes me feel weak.
I'll just watch you and take note.
Which foot you put first.
If you breathe heavier than usual.
Any hesitation you may have.
Lasting regrets, unsaid sentences.
If your eyes meet mine for the last time.
The way your body moves away from sight.

And so, your scent disappears with your skin.

My ****** expression never changed.
Yet tears stream down my face without my consent.
You talked about me as if I were ill.
Maybe I am.
Maybe I am crazy and undeserving as you said.
But this time I tried so hard to be normal.
How dare you.
How did you notice?
The cold has penetrated my bones.
I feel it
I can't be saved, can I?

I purge what's left inside.
Over and over.

I'm crying for me, not for you.