a part of who i am
not a thing of which
can be--
undone, re-done, or assigned
to a more daunting task
of staying behind

an image of desire
a dream
of someone
whom i could never be
the idea was stolen
and remains in departure
always running away
afraid
and maybe a life could be saved?

a dream
never a reality
something unsaid, desired, which was wanted
so badly
now rots in its box
for now its two different names
and a party of three.

leave,
cannot,
hollowed out from the snow, rain, many unknowns
a wish and  dream never to be fulfilled with love
the stress of its weight consuming
its best to assume
because of me
and the insecurity
that i am not your one to **marry.