I wanted to be in the room with you,
while you were with her.
I felt your heart beat faster
than it ever did
when I was with you.
I still don't understand why you left me behind
and went with her.
It's not something I can erase
because it replays
all of the time.
I can't help to imagine
words you spoke
or ways you made your
skin look like porcelain-
because I'd cause myself to bleed.
I hope it made you feel good,
knowing how much I adored you.
I don't want you to turn the lights off
and find her skin.
Although I've tried,
I can't forget it.
I've told myself
that you regret it
so many times.
Because you're the only one that I have ever loved.