I don't want to go through this nauseating pain again
its enough i have to deal with it more than once in a day
i just.
don't want to go through this...
...loneliness

Anything I do.
Anything I say
nothing makes sense
Not that it ever did
and
i have nothing


I am tired
but i cant sleep
I have to finish my work
but i cant,
because i am not good enough
I want to be a spark
but if i dont know if i will make it through this
how will i live
to see the day
my spark
works?



uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugh
so many thoughts
and yer i am going to be sharing this
what's with me

I am lazy, stupid
crazy
clumsy
can't think straight
can get distracted
headaches
this is too much

BUT i dont have a choice
I have to live like anyone else would
so be it then
i don't matter,
never did
never will

My apology to you was never accepted
hey, look
a trend!
I can't do a **** thing correctly.