A little girl looked at me today and said "Being in love is magical."
How can I tell her the two sides of love? How there's a high and a low, an up and a down?
One day you feel happy and want to rejoice and smile and sing to the sky and dance in the rain and jump in the puddles and make snow angels in your jeans and thin coat because you know you won't care how cold you get!
But another day you'll want to stay in bed all day and eat that box of chocolates you know isn't good for you because it all doesn't matter. You'll want to sleep and cry, sleep and cry, not smile at the terrible jokes your friends make and not be comforted by the gestures people give to you.
You'll feel your heart elevated, your pulse soar higher than an eagle, your face turn crimson and your palms get saturated with every bit of nervousness in you when you see the person you like and you'll stare and smile and chuckle nervously...
But you'll also feel your heart break in your chest, your lungs fall somehow to the pit of your throat as it clogs up and you don't know how to talk but just that you feel your eyes sting from the strain you're putting on them not to tear up and you have to say a long line of "I'm fine" ' s over and over to them to let them know that you need them to get away and you need to go away yourself, in a state of decay in your bedroom where no one can see you for a while, stone-faced and no longer in love, but in pain.
So how can I tell her all of this truth? A universal truth felt by all? I can't break her heart, for all is felt by experience.