Do you see me flinch at every word or touch? Do you see how my shoulders never fully relax, how my feet never step out of their alert stance? Do you see the way my fist keeps clenching? Do you see the nail marks turned bruises on my palm? Do you see me digging my fingers into the same places on my left arm and right hip? Do you see the inflamed red lines (I made) peeking out from under my sleeve? Do you see how my smiles don't mean I'm happy, they mean I'm desperate to hide this from everyone?