I have nothing to say anymore... I just want to look you in the eyes one more time, smile, and cry. You're not mine. Maybe you're not supposed to be. Maybe someday you'll come back to me. You're special to me and dear to my heart. You permanently scribed your place in it forever. Little did I know you wouldn't be here forever. I am fighting a horrible pain, I find it hard to get out of bed nowadays. I hope you don't mind me loving you. I hope you realize someday how much I need you. You brought such life to my world... Like a mother cries as her daughter departs, I will cry for you. I found true love in you. You've not just become family to me, you became the reason I lived. My door is always open, I will always take you in. I will happily provide you shelter no matter what the situation. I will always be here for you. I will always be here to love you, if you so wish to come back. Please understand, I wish I could spend everyday with you. I'm sorry I thought of every day I didn't spend with you "another wasted". I should have thought of them as working toward another day closer until the next time I saw you. I know that my words do not mean what they used to anymore, and while I miss you everyday,... I hope she treats you well, like you deserve, like I couldn't. But if she doesn't, I'm here. If you don't come back anyway, I hope the next person treats you the way you should be. You're a gem in this world. I will try my best for you, to crack a smile, as I shed my tears for you.
Please be understanding. I'll never get over you. It's something I'll have to learn to be okay with. I hope you don't mind. I miss you everyday.
I'm no longer the boy who betrayed you. I will never betray you again whether you come back or not. I promise.