It didn't happen when you first said you care about me
not even the second time you uttered those words
It didn't happen when you said you were my best friend
in this new city
It didn't happen when you told me to lay my head on your shoulder
and I finally relaxed in your gentle embrace
It didn't happen when you held me close in your arms
just a few seconds longer

I think I know when it happened

It happened when you were crying in your car
When we were surrounded by three other people
And I couldn't bear to see your despairing face in the rearview mirror
It was when I stretched my arm out to touch you,
like it was the first time
It was when I cried together with you for what felt like forever
When I felt every ounce of your misery and sorrow
I didn't care what the others would think.
That was the first time I told you
I love you
It's just now that I realize
You don't love me back