I don't see how
Worrying can make you
Tired.
But it does.
It makes me exhausted, it makes me an insomniac,
It makes me think crazy, it makes me worry more than I already was.
It makes me think every one has something happening to them
Right now
At this very moment.
Something is
Wrong.
But I'm tired. I really am.
I need my sleep.
But my mind is fighting,
Telling me over and over and over again that
I need to check one last time
Whether someone is okay
Whether someone is alive
Whether someone is someone is...
Damn it, there's the mental block.
It happens.
Usually.
I think.
I don't know.
But what I do know is that
It makes me unusual,
It makes me sick,
It makes me not normal.
It makes people stare,
It makes people scared,
It makes people laugh and laugh and laugh
While they call me names and mock me.
They tell me I'm crazy,
Mentally retarded, a
"Psychopathic pill popper".
I know that I am.
And I'm trying to stop.
But it's hard.
And I'm tired.