I have been realizing
That I am not open
I am closed
No matter how many times I wait for him after class
He will not get coffee with me
Because I am not open to it.
It does not matter I want to be part of someone else
Because deep down I really don't
You only get to love what you are open to loving.

There is a Pandora's box in my chest
And I have the key
And I won't give it to anyone else
And I wont unlock it
I am not Pandora
I will not release the chaos.
I do not want chaos.
Love is chaos.