Dec 2013
There comes a time when
February 28, 2011
At least in my life, there comes a time when I have to make a decision, which to other people might not seem that big of a deal, or might seem wrong, or like something I don't actually support. However, everyone else might not really understand my reasoning or might just think it is dumb or over-emotional.
But can you honestly say that you've never felt like you have an influence on people who matter to you? I mean, what if you could take this hypothetical scenario where: you give up something that you like - no really enjoy, but were originally content living without - a really long time ago, before you changed. And by giving this up, you have a chance of getting your friends to do the same. Even if its only a slight chance, would you choose it, hoping that they'd follow in your footsteps? Even if it means sacrificing the new, possibly better you. The you that finally fits in and is 'normal,' and that is actually looked up for being so good at this something. The you that has so much fun, when in the more recent past, it seemed like you could never be happy ever again.
I mean, what if they mattered to you that much. Do you think that they'd understand and support you? Would they really appreciate their efforts? But then again, even if they don't, at least you can say you tried, in a non-cop-out kind of way. and plus, you're arguably better off for having made the choice anyways, since now you have the old you back.
If those who I'm talking about read this, I doubt you'd know what I'm talking about, or recognize that it applies to you. But I've made up my mind on the spur of the moment. I'm so sorry, but it's over. I just want to be Wynn again, the me that was so innocent and laughed at, but taken seriously. And I want you all to be the old you's as well. As fun as these days are, and as much as I want them to continue on again. As much as I don't want to grow up now - this early, and I want to keep the image of what we Thought was older and more mature a couple years ago. I am definitely not ready for this, but I feel like its better now than never. So again, I say that it's over.
You won't notice for a while, but that's alright. I know that it'll come sooner or later, I don't doubt it.
February 28, 2011
At least in my life, there comes a time when I have to make a decision, which to other people might not seem that big of a deal, or might seem wrong, or like something I don't actually support. However, everyone else might not really understand my reasoning or might just think it is dumb or over-emotional.
But can you honestly say that you've never felt like you have an influence on people who matter to you? I mean, what if you could take this hypothetical scenario where: you give up something that you like - no really enjoy, but were originally content living without - a really long time ago, before you changed. And by giving this up, you have a chance of getting your friends to do the same. Even if its only a slight chance, would you choose it, hoping that they'd follow in your footsteps? Even if it means sacrificing the new, possibly better you. The you that finally fits in and is 'normal,' and that is actually looked up for being so good at this something. The you that has so much fun, when in the more recent past, it seemed like you could never be happy ever again.
I mean, what if they mattered to you that much. Do you think that they'd understand and support you? Would they really appreciate their efforts? But then again, even if they don't, at least you can say you tried, in a non-cop-out kind of way. and plus, you're arguably better off for having made the choice anyways, since now you have the old you back.
If those who I'm talking about read this, I doubt you'd know what I'm talking about, or recognize that it applies to you. But I've made up my mind on the spur of the moment. I'm so sorry, but it's over. I just want to be Wynn again, the me that was so innocent and laughed at, but taken seriously. And I want you all to be the old you's as well. As fun as these days are, and as much as I want them to continue on again. As much as I don't want to grow up now - this early, and I want to keep the image of what we Thought was older and more mature a couple years ago. I am definitely not ready for this, but I feel like its better now than never. So again, I say that it's over.
You won't notice for a while, but that's alright. I know that it'll come sooner or later, I don't doubt it.
