Maybe it’s okay to be vulnerable
To let go of my fears
To forget all the crap from over the years
To be able to feel
Whether it’s good or its bad
To be able to cry, laugh, worry, be mad
To open myself up for your judgment
Or love
To let myself go, float free for a while
Why do I think that others will hate me
Deny me attention, reject or just break me

If I cannot be free
Then I cannot live
Maybe it’s time I forget and forgive

I act so confident, so comfortable, and collected
But all that I do is set myself up for rejection

I’m scared of feeling the pain of a wound
So deep in my heart
That my ego is bruised
That I’ll forget how to live, how to love,
How to grow
So maybe that’s why I can’t let the real me show

I wear a mask everyday
A layer of paint
To cover my flaws
My past, my regrets,
I’m an imperfect person in this imperfect world
I’m an overly sensitive, insecure girl

I try and I try to deny all the facts
I’m happy,
no wait, that’s a lie
Every time that I cover my eyes to keep the tears held up, they drip down even more
So I cover the tear stains
Fill in the cracks, of my unbreakable mask

I guess I’ll just start this process off slow
Peel off one little layer at a time
Start off really shallow
Maybe work my way in
Try to discover who I’ve always been

Learn to accept myself for all that I am
Be at peace with myself and let some love in

I’ve got walls all around me
They’re not very thin
But sometimes they allow for sunshine to seep in
You’ve become my sunshine
In my world of dull grey
You’ve become my source of smiling
Each and everyday
You’ve become the thing I cherish most
So please
Don’t let go.