Weariness aches in every *****, weighs on every limb, drags at every thought.
My face is haggard, drawn and gray. My eyes are burning coals sunk deep into the dark pits of their sockets. My muscles clench in terror, as I panic at sudden noises and unexpected physical contact but they burn with exhaustion and I beg them to stop before they tear themselves apart and me with them. My movements alternate between sluggishness and flailing desperation. My mind races with paranoia, strains to differentiate perceptions from its own creations, abandons both reason and reality.
But still I do not sleep, for the fear that preys upon me constantly in my waking hours runs rampant in the night, And in my slumber I cannot clench my muscles to fight, I cannot run, I cannot even attempt to differentiate nightmare from reality.
Thus I flee my own consciousness, running from sagacity while still dragging my reason behind me. It stretches, tighter and tighter, until it snaps, And I go mad once again.
"Write drunk, edit sober."-Ernest Hemingway I think I'm incapable of sobriety.