When I* look at him, my feeble mind can't help itself but think, over and over again: ****. When I breathe next to him, it's as if I were breathing in a galaxy where every star or whirlpool was the synonym of ****. When I touch him, my fingers wind themselves up into each indent, each bone, each freckle which makes up a balance of things that I can only determine as: **Oh my god.