Good At Being Nothing

I prefer not to feel

It feels a hell of a lot better than being sad

I prefer numb

I prefer the silence so loud that it burns through my ears

I enjoy the nothing breathing deeper than the ocean

I'd rather feel nothing than feel that feeling of almost empty in the bottom of my stomach

I hate the twists and turns of my heart

I hate the way my gut drops when you say you love me

Because I know it isn't real and it never was

There are so many lost relationships because of my issues with trust

I don't know why but feelings just get in my way

So when you say you feel something there

Please don't be angry when I say that I do not

Please understand when I avoid the question

It's not your fault

I just do not have the answer you're looking for

I would rather say nothing

Feel nothing

Be nothing

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