I stand before this shadow knowing all the lies, all the madness, and all the possibilities laying silently on the doorsteps waiting for me to wake. I am know longer a  stranger to this place of destruction, or beauty, possibly both. I embrace them. Clarity shines deep. So deep that in the process of seeing myself, I saw the coward corrupted by the once so beautiful blessing bestowed in this heart. A coward because I  do not want to hurt her. A liar because the truth is we can know longer be.
The moon hasn't been out in months babe. That crash left some permeant damage. That one when you turned off the lights just when I needed to see. Why I thought I could piece together so much broke glass I am yet to understand. What's clear though is this numbness has left my mind running to long, and this heart, well it wants to feel again. May the curtains come down with the lesson instilled in my soul to never taunt true love with a broken dream.