I've told myself I'll never forgive you
For what you've done and said to me
But deep down I know you didn't
Truly Mean all that mean ****
I Eventually began to believe
You were hurt, I know I was too
But why didn't we stick together
And try to make it through?
The **** we were forced to deal with
It brought us closer
Even if only for a short time
But that's the past all of the good times
They're gone, all left behind
And I'm left with nothing but
Bitterness towards you
You can't expect me to know what to do
I won't apologize
Even if I realize
You were putting up a wall
A disguise
Its hard for you to show your emotions
To put them into action
So you get mad, an immediate reaction
But listen dad this is my way to say
I don't hate you
I just hate the things
that got in the way
Of our bright days
There were the times you were the only
One I had
When mom was in rehab
we really had
Eachother's backs
But look at us now,
We don't speak a single word
Mainly because I resent the past
The things we once said out of anger
were disturbingly absurd
But this isn't about what you did wrong
Or anything that went on in the past
I just want to give the forgivness
To you, so we can be in peace at last
You know, I need to stop and say to you
There isn't ever a day that goes by
When I don't think of you
When I don't think about all the good things you've done for us all
Yeah sometimes you weren't here but you never let us fall
Especially 17 years ago when I was just born
And you decided to stay with mom and me, when you
Could have just walked out the door
And I will never be able to say how much
That truly means to me
My dad, that, you will always be.
So,
Maybe one day ill have the power in my heart to read this to you
So you can understand,
And know the truth
I love you and
forgive you, dad,
This letter is my proof.