My lips are chapped and brown with dried blood, so I crawl on the rug to the bathroom and to stare at myself with self loathing for the third time this hour, while echoes of "you lost him" resound through my pounding head.
I slowly climb into my empty bed and cry for the first time in months, because seeing you felt like a punch in the ******* stomach. The consistency of your detachment was comforting like mismatched socks; awry, but slightly less than this.
The pain is new and fresh like a ripped off bandaid: it felt kind of okay, but then you took it away, again.
Emotions are not my friend, and apparently, neither are you. This is nothing new, but it seems I had convinced myself otherwise; because like you said with a bored yawn, though I am bad at most things, I am good at lying and doing everything wrong.