It’s the hollow sound of a toast to fill the silence of unaddressed questions, the celebratory clanging of glass on glass ringing from assumptions based on past experiences and theories from synapses of protagonists or all that is mystical; a god or a God for the rhetoric of bad days; the precatory shoulda, woulda, coulda’s you can count with all digits and the humdrums, the lalala’s to songs with lines you can never remember.
It is to fill in, with pencil, the blanks of unclear intentions, capricious endings, the what comes after the highest number, tentative now, for it is a trick question, the true stories of Bermuda Triangles and Altantises, for the ones Amelia kissed goodbye and all that is brief, promises neither broken nor kept; some, hypotheses for what happens after waiting.
It is the makeshift certainty ascertained the day he left all these unfinished, unanswered, incomplete… things. The sure of it invented by staking everything in a nebulous something, a nebulous anything that will have to do, like cotton patches on satin dresses or saints for hopeless causes. It was the invention to quench the constant need to know, to fill the in-between start to end for all that we can not stop. A made-up map by pirates below ten for every time we must set destinations beyond unchartered unknowns; a make-believe place holder to hold us to the relief we get from closure when the universe gives us none.
It is the lemniscate, the amen, the St. Jude we assign to our altars until we find actual satin or the aviatrix herself, or surrender everything in the spirit of faith or believe that not all things unfound are lost.