Here I stand alone yet with my husband. He is a rapper who knows me. But he hates me. Maybe it is because I can be so easily the villain he calls me. I am that stupid botch who has never done anything for him. And yes I know it's been 16 years but he still says I make his life's hell. I know I cook but my food not good enough. My cleaning *****. I don't deserve a date because I am a snake. I get hit a lot he said it's why god created man over woman. And I don't get  love . But I stay because I do....who knew.
I don't love me no more. Let's just zzz be honest. I had to stop loving me because they're ain't no room for me.  I am the only replaceable thing . The only non important thing. The only thing here. I be honest I'm afraid. I have fear. He says he lives me. Could that be true. Do darker bruises mean more love. I am a fool. I thought some how things would be cool. And my and  his mother warned me to pack my thing and leave but be true.  Stand up for yourself don't be afraid. But I have No where to go. Take 5 kids where. He would find m me and embarrass me. Hit me talk bad to our kids. They say it's me. I shouldn't walk away to avoid a fight. ....I ask what do I do. They say I don't know I fear for you.