I'm throwing my life away
But I can't tell if I'm the only one who doesn't care
Or the only one who does
And maybe killing myself would be more proficient
Than this torment I put myself through
But where would be the fun in that?
I am trying to find meaning in your words
Which used to be so easy for me
But all I can find is white noise
Because it seems like nothing we say
Is important anymore.
I choose my letters too carefully
To hide what I feel
And I seek for someone who knows
When I'm hiding my heart
I thought that could be you
I guess we all lie sometimes.