I don’t know how to deal with the fact that I’m probably always going to be over weight and that no matter how many people tell me I’m beautiful I will never be told I’m skinny and even if someone does fall in love with me they will be the one with the bigger wife and I don’t want to be described as bigger I just want to know why I wasn’t taught to love myself and why kids are ever taught the word fat and I want to go back in time to strangle whoever decided what weight makes you fat or how weight has to do with self-worth and I don’t know how to deal with the body I’m stuck with forever