This isn't easy for me ya kno', the pain is still swelling I feel it EVERY day, my heart feels so ******* low. I didn't set off to have us end like this, it wasn't my idea ya kno', just sometimes things go amiss. I think you sometimes see me as the devil, that I only wish to cause you pain, but I cannot be your crutch any longer, it has just been too much of a strain. I try to write and I just cannot. So this is where it will end. oh well. goodbye, my friend