I feel terrible I treated you in such a way
I feel terrible because I broke your trust
I feel terrible that you changed
I feel terrible this happened to us

I want to apologize
I want to be your friend
I want to not have to look away every time I see you
I want the foolishness to end

I can't because It will never be the same
I can't because I dug the hole too deep
I can't because she doesn't give a **** about me
But most of all, I can't because I can't stand the sight of what she has become

*if only...