I will never get married because marriages don't last. Being a product of divorce blows big chunks all the time. You tell your parents how you feel and they say "we will discuss it dear" but they never do it. My mom was always on her cell phone talking her tmi friend who tells allΒ Β and how she and strangers she meets placing personals have fun in her boudoir. Don't reach for a thesaurus means her bedroom. It's gross trying to get ready for classes and hearing your mom talk about *** and big **** plastic surgery she wants to get to keep her girly figure right and tight. I got body image issues due to her can't stop looking for flaws and wrinkles ******* mental complexes. Need therapy much dumb and vain mother? Could be why dad found a younger version of you in evil ***** clone he lives with who loves his fat wallet. No way can that someone with a hot *** want his gray hair with more than one bald spot and flabby abs. He works out but he's got a *** that quit even when he spends hours exercising at the gym and dancing trying to be my age saying old **** getting jiggy with it. I think **** me now when he says that and I hate my life. I feel messed up in the head because my parents hate who they are and I hate myself most days because that's what I learned from them. Should I go out and have *** with as many men as mom and her friends? Should I meet guys off the internet like mom now does? Should I meet a man who will take care of me like the woman dad is with who loves his fat wallet and great job and be the kind of woman my dad likes? Would dad be proud if I wanted surgery to get huge ***** like vain mom? Would mom care if I had *** with a guy in the back of his pick up like she bragged to her friend about? Would my teachers care if I sat in the back and cheated like the girl who gets answers from tests in exchange for quickies in cars during lunch. She is tardy for the party and class a lot. Teachers don't notice what's happening in schools and they don't freaking care if I study my *** off to get the same grades and I don't sleep with all the jocks. Maybe I should because I'm messed up in the head at 18 and nobody cares about me but me and that's a short list. Have friends but they have some of the same body issues and mental ones like me. I'm messed up in the head because I get accused of having *** and I'm still a ****** but thinking about giving up the goods to the one I met through personals. He wanted to cmid and I proved I'm legal. On the fence about giving away my virginity. Too ****** bad my mother and dad are busy and have mental issues and have no time for the girl they dressed up when she was a tyke but forgot about when she needed a training bra.