I had every reason to pack up all
my stuff
And just leave
Cause every morning I felt like
I was never good enough
It's just me
I never really had it
figured out
But **** no one really knew
what I was about
Just the black sheep that couldn't
fit in with the crowd
Couldn't really deal with the
anger and pain at once
I need to stop thinking of myself
in the back seat with cuffs
Cause I see myself as the one with
the 9mm in his hand
No way out, a clean slate not a sense
of hope or second chance
I feel myself laying in the bottom
of mud
Why me?
When everyone on the streets
is making money selling drugs
No one took the time to catch me
when I fell
Should've known better, I'm already
living in hell
All I ever see is people crying
tears of red
People **** each other everyday
I don't need that thought process
in my head
Jenny was a sweetie but she
let herself go
The whole time she was sticking
needles I didn't even know
What the f*
She had me, she was never
all alone
A single mom, she was pregnant on
the floor
I knew I had the right feeling
but I wasn't at the door
It's hard to see all the people
from my school
All my friends doing nothing
really nothing they can do
No school or work, nothing given
life is so cruel
Can I really blame life?
Is it ignorance or a right?
If I can go back in time I'd
give it everything I had
Give it all I got with the level
that I'm at
Without the second guess and
sacrificing everything I have
Could've been a brighter light
Instead I'm sitting with my dad
whiskey on the rocks
Same thing every night lecturing me
about the life I almost had.