I feel worthless right now. I feel like I am empty. Talentless. Worthless. Nothing. I hate it. I know I can change how I feel.. But I don't. I need to wallow in this. I feel like I should not change how I feel right now. It seems as if being worthless makes it so that the only place to go is better. I can only improve if I am already at the lowest. I feel like I can only improve. At the same time I feel like **** about it. At any rate, I sat in the shower for a good twenty minutes letting these emotions course through me. Wash out of m body in a torrent. I let them rage and purge themselves. Like a wild fire they consumed me. Everything in me, and inevitably, the burned themselves out. Used up all the fuel they had. Destroyed the doubt that festered in my thoughts. The left a void inside me. A void in which nothing but hot joy, Happiness could fill in. It left me happy feeling good. Content. Perfect.