by GodGivenGonzo on September 10, 2017. © Frederika Bimal, All rights reserved.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AjNoSwKjTnQ&t=2s
Whilst skulking in my bed feeling more than one half dead
in the deep of rem provided where down comforters resided
rested thoughts of dread I heavily bore
in between the realms where reality underwhelms
I hear a buzzing from the lofty helm scurrying upon the floor
lights flickened to mended beams while the buzzing began to increase
a text it seemed to be for me in such woe I am sure
Unwarranted and unkindly rest had suddenly found me finally to the rift I drifted blindly
blind to the stains of pain on my plain linen décor
I blankly replied without typing since surely, I'd only be griping so enraged my sorrow tightens and tightened my core
still no sound was heard abound except more buzzing to be found
a text from no one special of this I am sure
fall asleep to spy a peep of who I loved before
Tightened my grip onto her ether
realized I could not be there for any longer than a waking roar
a jarring snore turned a grumble
I decided awake was too much trouble
as a rumble emanated from a closed dresser drawer
wide eyed I'd pounced
blood boiling building anger by the ounce
"Would you cease this confounded sound! Lest my sanity restore!
Idle wise I idolize the meek and mild to weak and wise but on this crescent moon so high I'm needed skulking sore."
Wrenched that day one's heart did stay as I stuttered out some calming lore
no longer did I ponder in a grief that continued to bother
the name familiar somber thoughts of my lover adored
Impossible to be, be it karma, history or fate
follow destiny she did so happily into an early grave
crossed lines and wires hid my desire to believe there was an encore
to sleep per chance to dream of her
together forevermore
A simple plan to execute but when said aloud pride will refute
and decide pomp and circumstance denying myself the gore
wearily inept I slumped as I crept towards a fatal jump numb as I breached the border crossing the window like a door
in one side and out the other to reunite us with one another
no longer will I slumber to see who I was living for
bright eyed I smile ending myself imposed exile she shows me what's worthwhile and what's not anymore
I made the right decision
of this I am sure