I have not smiled I have not laughed I have not been happy since you left I have done nothing sat in my room stared at a TV my heart wants to give out wants to stop beating my head feels like its going to burst all of this since you left I understand why I get it I can wait but Im worried worried you will find another but like I said a million times its whatever makes you happy id walk through hell knock on the devils door and fight him if it makes you happy there is nothing I wouldn't do for you