Have you ever wondered what it’s like to be me?
Have you even taken the time to ever see?
Have you ever seen the pain inside?
Have you even heard the stories I hide?
No one understands the smile I show,
If you don’t know me then you’ll never know.
So here’s the story I've hidden behind,
You’ll understand soon why I want to rewind.

I'm just a kid way deep down,
A little girl from a little town.
I was in love with the girl of my dreams,
Thinking back now it’s not what it seems.
When I'm done I’ll hope you’ll see,
To never trust your heart upon your sleeve.
It all began when I was just fifteen,
It lasted longer than it should have been.
Once all this started I could tell,
This relationship won’t be ending well.
She cheated on me once or twice,
I knew from then she wasn't nice.
She lied to me so many times,
I have no proof I just write these rhymes.
All of this behind my back,
No wonder in confidence that I lack.

I was scared to disagree,
Just in case she’d turn on me.
When you’re in love I guess it depends,
Forcing me to leave my friends.
When I wanted to go out,
She’d go mental hit and shout.
Harm herself and take a pic,
Every time it made me sick!
How can someone be this cruel?
Send me pics when I was in school.
She’d cut her arm the blood would drip,
My love for her began to slip.

I was beaten black and blue,
I was so young I had no clue.
She’d get aggressive and run away,
Silly games that she would play.
I left her house for the last time,
Happiness in my eyes began to shine.
I was so close to the point of her knife,
Was she really going to take my life?!
That wasn't the end of a dreadful day,
I wanted to stop living and just lay.
The police were called they took her away,
I was taken home where I could stay.
When I got home she rang all night,
I just wanted her out of my sight.
Ten months later and I was free,
Where I could begin to really be me.