Everyone wants to know if she's okay.
She's fine.
It's a reflex,
but inside the monster is raging.
He wants her to hurt herself
but not visibly so she can keep saying she's fine.

She wonders why the monster has so much control
but she knows.
The monster is the only person she has,
the only man who has stuck by her.
The monster reminds her
that all they've ever shown her is pain.

She's rid herself of the monster for good...
If she was able.
If he was gone she could take chances!
in life, in love,
in general.
But he continues to control her every second
with the death grip he has on her life.

She feels herself running out of time.
Soon her monster will smother her
and she has to get rid of him.
Or else.