I expected you to choose me.
I told people that I didn't-
Too young
Too small
Too handsome.
I didn't need the fall.

I fell harder than I would have believed
And as we sat on the lawn
Cicadas chirping around us
I felt the weight of the world
Fall onto my shoulders
As you left me like only you could.

And left me isn't even fair
Since we weren't even something
You could leave behind.
But still my hearts aches for the child-
Because, really, that's what you are-
Who chose me second
Even though you promised me,
It wasn't a choice
Just bad timing
And ****** luck.