I can feel a tsunami coming, it's on the horizon, begging to be set free The dam is breaking; the desire to tear And when I let it loose, let the demons run free, Im going to drown in the blood pooling like a waterfall from my wrist
When I see the tide is high I will gently allow the water to break I will stop the red pulse of shimmering lipgloss only when the floor cannot breathe from the sea of red, glazed over like a sheet Let the salt from the red drip onto the floorboard like the baptism of a young child Only there is no water and this is not a game suited for children
Some call it selfish, destructive My doctor tells me I have a borderline personality But me, the hazards from this game entice me as a lamp does a fly I'm aware of the light, been close to it too many times But never has the beast in me dared to touch
Someone pulls me back to darkness and intertwined shaking hands Of yours they make me feel safe and less abused We stitch the walls, we close the blinds This isn't over yet; laceration comes too easily to ignore But for this moment, glowing eyelids, I pray dear God, don't take me yet His grip loosens, but I know, soon I'll be back for more