I'm not good at being a human
Though to be fair, no one ever taught me how
I had to pick up the pieces and hints that were dropped
Whenever I ******* up
Or wasn't successful enough
When I laughed instead of crying
Or made a joke that didn't land
When I couldn't articulate my truth
Or said something in the wrong tone
When I stayed quiet for too long
Or said something they didn't want to hear
When I did... Anything really
Especially when I did nothing at all
But at least I make good effort
Though it's never gonna be enough
Because I know deep down I'll never be enough
I was born to be a critter
I was shaped to be a human
I am forced to be a human
I don't know what I am at this point
But I **** at being a human
Though I shall find a way
To find myself, what I am
Somehow