They wait where there's an absence of light. where all is pitch black. they are just waiting for the chance to jump out in a surprise attack!

These older versions of me feel as if they are lifetimes, old. just corrupt and I am cold!

This fire,  it rages on as it burns inside my soul,  leaving a huge void, I can't fill, a giant hole!

Barely I escape, the clutches of some extremely evil entity. that wants to drag me to hell for all eternity. That certainly doesn't sound like it would be a very enjoyable journey to me!

I am currently seeking solace, but most of all I search for the salvation. that, for I desperately need. I'm also pursuing some motto-vation I need to smoke some ****!

Go ahead like my sincere warning has no merit like this **** demon how dare it.

I am but a walking talking disaster, a catastrophe. Living with chaos and calamity. In no small capacity. I **** **** up randomly. Just like the rest of my family. I ever so frantically question my sanity. This is pure agony. Is it possible that distorted is my sense of reality? caused by a bad break in my mentality. Callously I causally throw mother ******* from a balcony. Creating a casualty, would it be such a travesty to say it was a tragedy? Where is the humanity?

Why is life so **** unjust. Here's to hoping that No one dares to interrupt while I self destruct.

Looking in the mirror with such disgust, it's been from ashes to dust like there is not one left that I can trust. Why the hell is this life so I unjust?

There are few in which that I can confide my all too frequent thoughts of suicide. I'm outside inside, waiting for the pain to subside. Deep within these monsters reside. So if I must I'll swallow the Cyanide. The ties that bind are now somehow untied. Those that do not stand united will fall as they divide.  I hope you're satisfied with the things I decide. myself I am completely beside.