for 29 years, i believed in change. for 29 years, i had hope. and when i silently forgave them, it made me believe that they don't deserve it. time and time again, the hurt against me gets worse. i don't know what i did so wrong in the past life that i deserve this pain. everyone else loves me, everyone else sees the real me and accepts me for who i am...why can't they? why can't my own blood treat me like how they should? disappointed is an understatement.