Nov 2013
Therapist - so why are you here in my office today?
Me - I've been doing terrible lately and I have a lot to say.
Therapist- well why do you say your doing "terrible"?
Me- because unfortunately I've done actions I'm not proud of that hurt who I love.
Therapist - well why did you commit these "actions" that you speak of
Demon- I don't ******* no. I was born with no savior from above. With no love. And I came where I come from.
Therapist - and these are reasons to hurt who you care about.
Me- no but I did them and I'm a terrible person and now the voice in my head shouts.
Therapist - what is the voice in your head shouting about?
Demon - how you should shut your ******* mouth. Be quite as a mouse.
Therapist - you seem to have a lot of anger issues inside your head.
Demon- no **** you ******* ***** that's why I lay screaming and clawing in my bed.
Therapist - would you want you son to grow up to be a man like you.
Me- me before? Me then? Me now? Or me in the future?
Therapist- aren't they all the same?
Me- no not a bit. I was once a *******. Became good. One bad hit. Back to a ******* hood. I'm doing better now and I will continue to grow.
Therapist - tell me about yourself all those years ago.
Demon- or leave me the **** alone.
Therapist - now now Ayllon
Me- I struggled. More then most. I survived. Not trying to boast. But from my survival it consumed me.
Therapist - is that what made this struggling man before me?
Me - yes. But I refuse to give up. I'll be strong I'll be give. I'll give love to her.
Therapist- and what's stopping you from doing it again.
Me- because I wouldn't lose just her. Id lose myself, my health, my life. I refuse to hurt her. That's what it comes down to.
Therapist- does she believe you.
Me- no. But actions speak louder then words. If she doesn't give up on me she'll see me grow. And who knows. Maybe she'll love me again in the end. But until that day I'll show her I'm a new man.
Me - I've been doing terrible lately and I have a lot to say.
Therapist- well why do you say your doing "terrible"?
Me- because unfortunately I've done actions I'm not proud of that hurt who I love.
Therapist - well why did you commit these "actions" that you speak of
Demon- I don't ******* no. I was born with no savior from above. With no love. And I came where I come from.
Therapist - and these are reasons to hurt who you care about.
Me- no but I did them and I'm a terrible person and now the voice in my head shouts.
Therapist - what is the voice in your head shouting about?
Demon - how you should shut your ******* mouth. Be quite as a mouse.
Therapist - you seem to have a lot of anger issues inside your head.
Demon- no **** you ******* ***** that's why I lay screaming and clawing in my bed.
Therapist - would you want you son to grow up to be a man like you.
Me- me before? Me then? Me now? Or me in the future?
Therapist- aren't they all the same?
Me- no not a bit. I was once a *******. Became good. One bad hit. Back to a ******* hood. I'm doing better now and I will continue to grow.
Therapist - tell me about yourself all those years ago.
Demon- or leave me the **** alone.
Therapist - now now Ayllon
Me- I struggled. More then most. I survived. Not trying to boast. But from my survival it consumed me.
Therapist - is that what made this struggling man before me?
Me - yes. But I refuse to give up. I'll be strong I'll be give. I'll give love to her.
Therapist- and what's stopping you from doing it again.
Me- because I wouldn't lose just her. Id lose myself, my health, my life. I refuse to hurt her. That's what it comes down to.
Therapist- does she believe you.
Me- no. But actions speak louder then words. If she doesn't give up on me she'll see me grow. And who knows. Maybe she'll love me again in the end. But until that day I'll show her I'm a new man.
