I have to hold them up. I will NOT let them down. It will **** me. I know. I've accepted it. I will not allow them to follow.
The water is cold in my lungs. It stings, like shards of ice. All i want to do is scream, But water doesn't make a sound. It's heavy, and quiet, like snow. Like curtains. Like fur. Like the silence that comes after the splashing, When the water wins. It always wins.
I can't see the light overhead. I'm so far down. They're gone. I know they're gone. They stopped fighting. What am I for? I still won't let them down. There's still a chance. But I know there isn't.
Surprise. I've lasted longer than I thought I could. It took longer for me than them. Even when I held them on my shoulders.
I can't breathe. My god, I need air. I NEED TO BREATHE. Let me out. Let me out. Please. I cannot breathe. It hurts. I didn't think it would hurt.
It wasn't the water. It was never the water. It was the heaviness. It suffocated me. It got them too. What am I for? What was I ever for?