I egregiously only need to exist
I precariously zoom and I wizz
that they see predominately
and worse is predetermination,
of the schizophrenia
of the snaps, crackle and bubbling,
pre-historing a built up medication
causes  neutropenia,
the white cells drop off,
but in my case they grew.
Its the red that became by few,
So I pop all of the pills,
To try to in-inadvertently
but sincerity is drowned
in stovepipes of whispered.
It was the alcoholism
that created disparity.
Now, its the lil pills
that he tells me too....
And I will forget you.
Tell that to existence
that even the lobotomized
remembers with no insistence.

I just wish to swim,
outside of you,
I just wish
to dream outside of you,
I just wish to be
internalized
deep inside of you.