When it’s time to leave,
I feel no desire.
I have no regrets —
no remorse,
no love,
no pain.

I let my body
feel numb
in the coldness,
as I curl into myself
along the shore.

when the waves
fetch me,
I want to open my eyes
and see the blue ocean
fading darker
as I sink deeper.

But this is not
the darkness I fear —
but the darkness I dare.

And in the end,
when I see light,
I know I’ve reached
the shore — the heaven.