I called you Jane of all trades, as if it were just a clever phrase— as if your hands hadn’t bled learning every art that helped you stay alive. But I knew
You didn’t chase mastery You chased meaning You picked up crafts when sleep left you learned to dance because silence hurt too much took up swimming as if you could swim your troubles from this weir of waste. You were always trying— not to be the best but to be whole.
And God, how fiercely you fought. With laughter that sounded like armor, and eyes that carried battles no one else dared name. You were relentless, brave beyond words, beautiful in a way that had nothing to do with what you looked like and everything to do with how you survived.
She battled demons no one else could see The kind that none believed to be true Still she fought despite scars— stitched both in mind and heart inside the pauses between her own heartbeats When she gave her heart she didn’t hand it over in pieces She poured. She flooded Like a tulip bursting through frost soft, bold, unafraid of breaking
You gave your soul in soft-spoken glances, in texts at 2 a.m always checking in if I'm okay in remembering the little things I never even knew I said. And I— I was the lucky one once.
We’re not us anymore. And maybe we never fully were. But I carry you, still— in the quiet ways you changed me. And I still love you. Not the way I did then, but deeper. Quieter. In the way a gardener still visits the soil where a tulip once bloomed— knowing it will return each spring, just not for him.
Your name speaks for itself— You can do everything Every survival you triumph through Despite all that your walls did break But I knew the truth Loving me was the only thing you didn't master You couldn't pull through
And if this poem finds its way to you someday— just know: You were never too much. You were everything. And loving you was the closest I ever came to loving something whole.