I take the long breath out,
I take the long breath in,
wondering when this thing will end.
This pile of uncertainty,
This puppet game,
with tangled up strings.

Surely you knew me well enough,
to know that though it would have been tough,
the truth would have not broken me,
I don’t know why you act like you can not see
me now, but I hope you do.

I hope you see me in the stars I wish to travel to,
I hope you see me in the summer sky, bright blue,
I hope you see me in the waves crashing on the sand,
I hope you see me in the towers, tall and grand,
I hope you see me in the books that line the shelves,
But I curse you to see me when you see yourself.

When I see myself, there is not too much good,
you brought that out in me, like you should.
But with you gone, I struggle to see
the kindness you brought out in me.
The kindness,
the politeness, how can’t you see,
that I’m exactly who you thought me to be.

I gave you every single part,
gave you access to every scar,
unlock me with a given key,
and you will see that half of me is missing,
gave to our hundred “new beginnings”

I hope you see me in the words I strive to write,
I hope you see me in the ceiling on your sleepless nights,
I hope you see me in the earth beneath your feet,
I hope you see me in the echo of every thing you speak,
I hope you see me in the clock when it hits the twelfth,
But I curse you to see me when you see yourself.