My cheeks burn,
splashed with carnation red,
soaked with blood I didn't shed.

It's all in my head.

Eyes surrounding me,
violating me,
I sense the judgement,
through walls built off trauma.

Skin crawling,
yearning for an escape,
for freedom beyond the prying looks.

I spoke.
I choked.

Holding back the tears
they are hot against my skin.

Keep it in.
You must keep it in.

Awkward and restless,
i hate this.

People surround me,
They look.
They judge.
They perceive.

They must hate me.
I hate me.

I close my eyes,
shut the doors to the world,
that I don't belong in.

I can't escape this.