I dress pretty feminine I guess I mean I think I do But the thought of being called a them makes me smile too
I love dresses They're comfortable I feel confident Or at least more than I do in sweatpants But sometimes I hate the circular things on my chest Part of me wishes they were something else But I'm a girl Yes yes Probably
Yeah I love putting eyeshadow on The colors make me happy guess But then again Part of me really wants to cut my hair short Have a deep voice And when someone calls me a she The tiniest part of me wishes I wouldn't be Probably nothing right?
But I don't really know I don't think I'm right there in the middle That's for sure After all I like skirts But I also sit like a guy sometimes And it feels good It feels in between But no no no I'm probably not This is probably nothing Probably
Most of me loves my name I mean I know it's pretty It's a vine It's beautiful It's nature I love nature But it's so feminine But I guess it's okay It's probably okay I think this is fine Whatever I'm probably overreacting anyway I don't need this now too
I'm a girl That's what I've always been Probably Probably Probably
Never wrote any of these thoughts, ever. Always too scared that if I did they would become real. Never told anyone either. I don't know, but I'm THINKING just THINKING about experimenting with some really close friends calling me they/them but I'm mostly too scared so I'm probably not. After all this is probably nothing, right? Probably