I hated how I felt about you
I cherished you and held your attention
I nurtured it, fed it love and affection
If I envisioned it
It would glow like a beacon in my hands
But I still hated how I felt about you
Because you’d never choose to feel the same
And you never wanted love in that way
I wished there was a **** switch
Where my romantic inclination towards you
Could be terminated
So that I may see you in the only way
You wished to be seen
But you stayed over that night
I looked over the edge of the dorm room bed
I saw your quiet eyelids
Shielding your busy eyes
And I wanted to hold you
I wanted to place a kiss on your cheek
No, I wanted to kiss you
On your strawberry lips
Of course I never told you
I kept it hidden, locked, door after door
I didn’t want to scare you
And make you believe
People will always, and only want more
Time between us grew older
And my love remains
But I wish to tell you
Addison, my friend
I have loved you since fifth grade