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Finding my mind roaming
Finding my mind in bad places
"So what?"
So what?
I think about nearly EVERYONE in a bad sensual way
It's bad
Terrible
I know it
But I can't stop
Like my mind it tempted to keep coming back to the subject

I keep finding myself
Touching my friends in ways
That is not suitable for children's eyes
I keep finding myself
Talking to my friends
Saying things only meant beneath the covers
Or with my lovers
I keep finding myself
Thinking about myself
In vulnerable positions
With others

I keep finding myself
Disgusted
Yet amazing
As I feel a person's hand on my neck
Slowly squeezing
Pushing back
Like I love the pain it creates

I keep finding myself with these ****** thoughts as if it were a full time job and working overtime
I'm disgusted